the weekend...

alright, it's Saturday... not going to cheat today. no chocolate, no cheezies... OK, a couple of cheezies. I had 7... but i marked them down on MFP... I'm on my 5th coffee... I might go to the store to get some chain to make some necklaces to put on Kijiji and Etsy. I do have some chain that i've rescued though. we'll see. that's about it for today. feeling a bit down on myself. I've heard writing out all the things you like helps.

Coffee
Cuddling
being intimate
planning the wedding
grass on my feet
when the cat lays between Tim and I
going to bed together
seeing my weight actually go down

crisis averted :P

yay! Monday!

back to following my diet... I caved a little on the weekend... those onion-ring puff things, I have no idea what they're called, but those and chocolate covered sesame seeds... and candy from fanshawe pioneer village, and... okay, I'll stop... so anyways, I feel like a cow. it's NOT okay to cheat just on the weekend. or ever. I need to reward myself once in a while, but not that much. 1500 calories a day, + however much I exercise. so more exercise= more food. the only exercise I got this weekend, was walking around fanshawe pioneer village with Tim's parents. maybe I'll do some strength stuff today. Maybe.

With my breakfast, and lunch, I'm at a little under 1000 calories. hopefully I can keep dinner pretty low.

Am I crazy?

it has to get easier...

so I decided that before my wedding, I want to lose 40 pounds... sounds like a lot, but it really isn't, seeing that I have 28 months. I registered on this website www.myfitnesspal.com to track what I'm eating and how much I'm exercising*. So far I feel a lot better. Eating about 1500 calories a day and taking vitamins and drinking a shitload of water (or should that be boatload?) anyway, a lot of water.
According to Tim's mom's digital scale, I'm 210 lbs... according to the analog one (which I trust more) that I got last night, I'm 204.. 6 lbs is a lot on the ego... that's 6 weeks of dieting... I think I can lose 40, it's not really that bad, is it? I just have to cut out a lot of the fast foods I eat and replace them with fruits and veggies. (okay, we'll see if I'm doing alright in a few weeks)

Last night my friend Will came over, he's working with Primerica now, and he was with his boss and they were explaining financial stuff. money money money. is this all people care about these days? yes, I realize I have to work to make money to live and pay bills, but money doesn't make me that happy... if Tim and I lived in the forest and lived off the land... growing our own vegetables, killing our own meat, I'd be 100% happier... his boss tried to push me in to working with them... I couldn't do that... I have too little free time as it is. I like my job, I don't mind that I don't make a lot of money, my job honestly isn't that stressful... "mo money, mo problems" I don't need a part time job to add to my full 2 full time jobs (security, and being a housewife) could you imagine how stressed I would be? SO stressed... I have a pretty short fuse as it is.

So Will and Sophia (his daughter) (and I'm assuming his boss) coming back on monday to talk to me about savings and paying down my debt and Tim's debt. maybe thay can help, maybe they can't.

(* I don't actually exercise a lot. I have been making an effort, but that's 5 minutes of jumping rope every 3 days... lol)

it's a cat thing...

I have a cat. she's grey. and absolutely hilarious. she loves a challenge. we've recently figured out this box with a hole in it/ping pong ball thing and it gets us laughing hysterically... lol this isn't her playing with the ball, but her anyways. she's a bit fatter now, but you get the idea :)

Hi! I know, I'm a loser. I haven't written anything in a while. not like I have any followers... lol the last few weeks have been good, keeping the house clean, hanging with the fam, (ok, Tim's fam... my almost fam...) and it's been good. togetherness, a sense of belonging. all that. My friend K is starting to make some soapy things... bath bombs, salts.. she's got a store on Etsy! http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=7435910 I think I might get up there too, with some jewellery and whatnot. Making some Chain mail jewellery and beaded stuff. we'll see how ambitious I get. lol. we were maybe thinking of having a booth together in one of the lovely summer festivals, not this summer, but next. that'd be exiting. but yeah. work's getting a little monotonus lately, so I gotta spice it up with other ways to make money. lol