yaaaay! day 10! I know, it's lame. but it's a milestone! kind of. I did bite on day 6, so does that mean I have to go back 6 days? maybe when I reach a month, I'll go back the 6 days. It won't seem like as long then. As of right now, it's more than half of the time I've not bitten them. Tim said last night that he's gotten used to me having short nails. It's not the long nails I want. Okay, that's a total lie. I DO want long nails. Not disgustingly long, but long enough to look nice and be able to scratch Tim's back. but the thing I want most is to be able to break the habit. always having my hand in my mouth looks completely disgusting, and all the germs and bacteria that go with it? ew. I also love painting my nails. so that'll give me more space to doodle. lol.
I made some Kanzashi flower hair barrettes for Tim's friend's wife Madeleine. it was her birthday last week and last time she was at our house we were talking about girly accessories and how expensive they are. She mentioned that she was looking at some Kanzashi flower combs and they were like $20-$30. pffft. I'm crafty. a good chance for me to learn a new skill and do a friend a favour. in total they cost me about $1.30 each to make. a lot of time, but like I said, I learned a new skill, so I got something out of it. Fun!
Canada day is coming up next week. not sure if I'm going to go see fireworks or not. we'll see what Tim wants to do.
xoxoxo
T
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
day Nine
so on day 6 I bit the ring finger on my left hand, and also the thumb on my left hand. For no other reason than I wasn't doing anything else at that moment. Boredom. day 9 is nothing though. I've gone a month before, and I actually had a free edge! (like hanging over the edge of my finger) but I had acrylics on for the first 3 weeks. so it doesn't really count. I find myself bringing my hand up to my mouth a lot, and sometimes I bite the skin around my nail. I actually WANT to stop this time though. the other times I was like "meh, maybe I should stop.." but I want to have nice, natural nails for my wedding. I'm damned determined. hopefully I'll at least make it to my 10th anniversary. that's an easier goal. it's not to say that I CAN bite after that, but it'll be a good feeling of accomplishment if I make it there. it's in a little over a month, on July 27th. they say it takes a month to break a habit, so maybe by then I won't even have the urge! I have been doing it for AT LEAST 22 years.. it's likely going to take more than a month.
I will have nice nails. I will not bite them.
I will have nice nails. I will not bite them.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Day 5
NOW I'm starting to feel it. The urge. maybe it's just because I haven't had my coffee yet. just stopped brewing. mmmmm Coffee. I have been without coffee since Friday. I did have coffee yesterday, but it wasn't in the morning, so it didn't count. I don't usually blog on the weekend. I actually don't think I've ever blogged on the weekend. I'm feeling very bloggy though. Maybe just to distract myself.
It's a beautiful day today. like I said, I've been without coffee. so this morning, when Tim left for work, I took my bike and went to the grocery store to get some. took me a half hour. there and back. nice ride.
Yesterday Tim and I went to his parent's place because Tim's mom's cousin and aunt were there. I love Tim's family. they're awesome. so cute :) Auntie Eileen is 89 this week. I'm pretty sure she's the last surviving great aunt. I thought Tim was going to cry when she said that Millie (Tim's grandma who passed about 12 years ago) would be so proud of him. He was really close to his grandma.
it's a lovely Sunday. maybe I'll try to convince Tim to go for a walk after work.
<3
T
It's a beautiful day today. like I said, I've been without coffee. so this morning, when Tim left for work, I took my bike and went to the grocery store to get some. took me a half hour. there and back. nice ride.
Yesterday Tim and I went to his parent's place because Tim's mom's cousin and aunt were there. I love Tim's family. they're awesome. so cute :) Auntie Eileen is 89 this week. I'm pretty sure she's the last surviving great aunt. I thought Tim was going to cry when she said that Millie (Tim's grandma who passed about 12 years ago) would be so proud of him. He was really close to his grandma.
it's a lovely Sunday. maybe I'll try to convince Tim to go for a walk after work.
<3
T
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Day two..
The first few days of not nail biting is usually pretty easy. Just cause they're so short, I look at them and there's barely anything to bite. Also, when I do decide to stop biting my nails, it's usually after I've bitten them so hardcore that they hurt. A lot. So much so that it hurts to do anything. pick anything up, scratch, wash my hair- ANYTHING.
This time, I have a secret weapon. An emery board. Every time I get the urge to bite, I'll just use the emery board to file them down a little bit. I got Tim to take a picture of them yesterday. I think I'll do that every other day, and then on the off days I'll give myself a maincure. I've been using a product called 'stop n' grow on and off for the last two years. I have less than a quarter of the bottle left. hopefully if I put it on every day (sometimes twice a day) it'll last me for a couple more months.
I've been really stressed about money lately. Everything revolves around money, doesn't it? not really so much 'money' but more 'debt'. so essentially the 'lack of money'.
I bought a little laptop 2 weeks back. i love it. this is part of my money issue. I won't be able to afford something, so I'll just Visa it up, then I'll regret it. so because of this little laptop, I promised myself I'd put myself on a more strict budget. and I have. like if I get $600, I'll put $420 in the shared (where all the bills, mortgage, insurance come out of) $40 for transportation (I only 'need' $20, but in the winter I need 40 cause I buy a bus pass, so I just keep it there so it doesn't confuse me.) and $40 for 'allowance' lol. not bad, but not great. $100 to Visa (I used to only do $60) and the rest for a 'float' if I get less than $600, I adjust it accordingly. taking a little bit off of everything. i'm going to work it out in percentages so I have a reference
70% to shared
7% to transportation
6% allowance
15% to Visa
the rest for a float.
(lol 2% float)
thanks for reading <3
T
This time, I have a secret weapon. An emery board. Every time I get the urge to bite, I'll just use the emery board to file them down a little bit. I got Tim to take a picture of them yesterday. I think I'll do that every other day, and then on the off days I'll give myself a maincure. I've been using a product called 'stop n' grow on and off for the last two years. I have less than a quarter of the bottle left. hopefully if I put it on every day (sometimes twice a day) it'll last me for a couple more months.
I've been really stressed about money lately. Everything revolves around money, doesn't it? not really so much 'money' but more 'debt'. so essentially the 'lack of money'.
I bought a little laptop 2 weeks back. i love it. this is part of my money issue. I won't be able to afford something, so I'll just Visa it up, then I'll regret it. so because of this little laptop, I promised myself I'd put myself on a more strict budget. and I have. like if I get $600, I'll put $420 in the shared (where all the bills, mortgage, insurance come out of) $40 for transportation (I only 'need' $20, but in the winter I need 40 cause I buy a bus pass, so I just keep it there so it doesn't confuse me.) and $40 for 'allowance' lol. not bad, but not great. $100 to Visa (I used to only do $60) and the rest for a 'float' if I get less than $600, I adjust it accordingly. taking a little bit off of everything. i'm going to work it out in percentages so I have a reference
70% to shared
7% to transportation
6% allowance
15% to Visa
the rest for a float.
(lol 2% float)
thanks for reading <3
T
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
16 months to go..
I really have to stop biting my nails.. this is so disgusting. I'll write on here every couple of days, just to re- affirm my intention. maybe post weekly pictures. just because I don't really notice ANY growth AT ALL..except for when I grow them for a while and then bite them off. "oh, they WERE a lot longer".. lol
Tim said something interesting yesterday, as I was giving my mandatory luvins to the queen of my house.
"I wish you would talk to yourself as nicely as you talk to the cat"
and it's true.. everyone should.
Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror, and I think "I'm such a fatty" but why is it that my cat is apparently 'obese' (this is what people tell me, anyway.. compared to 'their' cats..) and I think she's the most beautiful cat in the history of cats.
so yeah. lol. just a couple of things to think about.
I really have to stop biting my nails.. this is so disgusting. I'll write on here every couple of days, just to re- affirm my intention. maybe post weekly pictures. just because I don't really notice ANY growth AT ALL..except for when I grow them for a while and then bite them off. "oh, they WERE a lot longer".. lol
Tim said something interesting yesterday, as I was giving my mandatory luvins to the queen of my house.
"I wish you would talk to yourself as nicely as you talk to the cat"
and it's true.. everyone should.
Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror, and I think "I'm such a fatty" but why is it that my cat is apparently 'obese' (this is what people tell me, anyway.. compared to 'their' cats..) and I think she's the most beautiful cat in the history of cats.
so yeah. lol. just a couple of things to think about.
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