wow...this week has been the CRAZIEST WEEK EVER!! okay, maybe not ever, but I sure have been busy! Monday, I did all the stuff I said I was going to do, Yay me! PLUS I worked late...

Tuesday, I had to attend a disciplinary meeting.

Wednesday, I met with the Union president, and I must say, that I don't know if I like her very much. She seems to spend union money willy-nilly, and i'm not really a fan of that. Also just the way she talks about stuff I don't like.

Thursday, I had to go downtown, to get my engagement ring appraised, so it can be insured, because I lose things. lol. I'm also getting 2 of my rings sized. the promise ring that Tim bought me for my 16th birthday, and the ring I bought for myself when I stopped smoking. I'm exited to wear those again.

Today, I have 2 disciplinary meetings. after that, hopefully I get home in a timely manner... to clean up for D&D tonight.

so, No D&D tonight. only James showed up, so we watched TV and ate pizza till we were fat. now, I'm going to bed.

Love!!

it's November?

wholy shit balls... it's November?!? like the 11th month... like 6 weeks before christmas... wholy shit where have I been? I seriously suck for not blogging in the last MONTH... it's been so crazy... I've seriously done NOTHING. like... nothing... I'm going to take some advice a friend gave me a little while ago- Make lists. like a list of things you want to accomplish that day/week/month. This is a great idea. why didn't I do it before? I want to start blogging more, my page was lonely for over a month!! so here's what I want to get done today:

Work.
blog.
clean for 45 minutes
figure out what's for dinner... pork chops maybe?
get corn syrup
put up christmas tree.
shower
maybe make rice krispie treats.

That's my list so far for today. and I'm half done 2 of those things. (Working and blogging of course. 45 minutes doesn't seem like a lot of cleaning, but it's better than nothing. it'll allow me to do 15 minutes in the kitchen, living room, and main bathroom. if I feel more ambitious after that I'll do more, but I think 45 minutes a day is a good goal. this weekend I didn't clean at all. lol. I cleared some stuff off of the counter, but that's it. useless!!
The corn syrup I need for the rice krispie treats. They're made with peanut butter and it's Tim's mom's recipe. we'll see how it goes... lol
yay! we got our christmas tree! freaking finally!! yesterday, I went to Walmart, and they're SO dis- organized there!! the thing i hate the most about ANY store is if you are an employee, and I as a customer, ask you about something, and you have no idea, PLEASE... for my sanity tell me that you have no idea!! there's nothing i hate worse than someone that pretends they know what they're talking about..anyway, after over an hour and a half of being there, and just about to give up and go home, I went back for one more look and there they were. NOT where they're supposed to be of course, but in the middle of the aisle on a skid. but i got one!! Woot!!

is all for now :)

it's October??

it's October! that's insane!! ok, not really, but wow does time fly! Crud, I didn't check the interest rates for this month....
1.9% still. yay! our mortgage is almost at the value we bought the house at. lol still, down $4000 the first year is pretty awesome :)

Last week I ordered some jewelry from Bodycandy.com. 3 sets of plugs and a tongue ring. I can't wait!! they should come this week.

let's see... what else has happened since I wrote last... Someone got fired from work- no big deal, just a drama queen (King?) ...been walking with K. down to 190! woot! lol. yeah. other than that, nothing, really. BOOOORRRINNNGGGG..... lol

Yesterday I did groceries. though, it wasn't the chore I thought it would be... the chore it USUALLY is... I made a list, but I lost it on the way TO the grocery store. rrrg... I think I remembered most of the stuff on it, Definitely not all of it. I still can't wait to cook it all up :) mmm mmm mmm

Today, I'm at work. There's a charity breakfast for the United Way. it's not the breakfast part that annoys me. I have a lobby. a 'reception area'. it's about 20 feet by 25 feet. there's 5 people in my area. 5 Women. 5 Chatty giggling women. not to mention all the people that are coming through. I really hope I don't end up killing someone by the time this shit is over.
it's really between the perfume and the chatting..
1 hour and 15 minutes left...

So today I was late for work. I'm not sure if the alarm didn't go off or I subconsciously turned it off or what, but I didn't notice the alarm. I woke up at 6:04. 15 minutes after I normally LEAVE for work. so that was pretty interesting... I haven't been late since January. I do feel bad, but what happened, happened. can't really change it now. just need to move on.
Today, I'm pretty awake. of course. lol I slept in! hahaha
it rained last night on my walk. it wasn't too pleasant, but it was nice to cuddle Tim when I got home. lol

Another Monday

Monday, Monday.
I'm not a Monday hater. I'm actually pretty cheery on Mondays. This morning when I woke up though, I was SUCH a baby. Freezing cold and whiny. I didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't sleep that well. I just wanted a re-do of Sunday. To just relax and do my own thing. Maybe have a little nap. Clean up a bit.
But no. Work. Always work. Sometimes it's okay to work a little extra. Not today. I'm definitely going to do some housework when I get home, Not really sure how much, but 'some' anyway.
I think Tim should have his people over more. like every other week. just to motivate me to clean. I am in serious need of motivation. Just having a clean house isn't enough. As much as I Love it when it's clean, it's the getting there that's annoying.
And then there's my sewing room. Maybe I'll start posting pictures of it weekly, just to show some progress. to 'motivate' me to make some progress.

speaking of Motivation... these 2 sayings just came upon me. I don't know if I've heard them before or if my mind just made them up.

Weightloss will only go as far as you go.

To see real changes, you have to make real changes.

I guess they're both kinda saying the same things, but they make sense. I've been eating out a lot lately. not like every day or anything, just 2 or 3 times a week. which is a lot for me especially because I don't have a whole lot of money.

I'm going to start making REAL changes.

Naps...

So I remember stressing how much I love naps. I really do... they're great. they're almost better than 'actual' sleeping...lol.
today I got home from work at about 14:30. I said hi to Haze (my Kitteh) put the peanut butter that I had bought away, and went for a nap. I just woke up. at about 15 minutes to 5. Fucking awesome. I can stay up later tonight with Tim (but not too late) and I'll be nice and rested in the morning.
I do have heart burn, bad breath, and am hungry! so I'm going to go remedy those things.
MUAAAH!
(that was a kiss BTW...)

I wish you all the restedness of a nap!

another day!

Today it is Friday. I work in an office, therefore Friday, EVERYONE is happy. Awesome :)
Also, today is goodie day. I've already had a banana chocolate chip muffin, a LOVELY concotion of spices and pita and oil, baked to perfection, which I believe is the Lebanese equivalent to Bruschetta, and a smile cookie from Tim Hortons. I really could go for another piece of that spices bread. mmmmm
I'm feeling pretty darned good today. Just in an easy going mood. Yesterday, a friend and I walked 5 Kilometres! 5! it didn't even seem like that long! awesome. I have to get my fat ass moving. AND I have to get her not- so fat ass moving. It'll be good for the both of us.
Saturday we're going dress shopping. that's tomorrow! yay! we're going out for breakfast, and then we're going to go look at Wigs, and then wedding dresses. not going to try any on though. just look. it's mostly for her wedding. mine's not for another 2 years, and i'm going to make most of my dress. I'm not sure about the top of it though. I have an idea of what I want from under the boobs down, I have no idea about straps, sleeves, anything. bleh. lol
I have a lot of stuff to do today. Work, (doing that right now, can't you tell? lol) clean, work on my puzzle more, (Lucille Ball's hair is a pain in my ass, but it's so pretty) ok, that's pretty much it, but I have a lot of cleaning to do...

In darkness, Vision!
xo

Mabon

Hello, I hope everyone had a very good Mabon. I didn't do too much, I just took my Fiance out for dinner, and did a home protection Ritual. This was now my second Mabon in my house. it's crazy how time flies. Being a Pagan has helped me realize that things are a lot better in life than I first percieved them to be. That things always turn out the way they should, not always the way you want them to be. Being Pagan has given me the focus to constantly re-assess what's going on in my life. it's good. life is good.

in darkness, light. my friends.
Trina

Kittens...

so as I've mentioned before, Tim wants another cat. An exotic one. He had found these cats online, they're called Tonkinese. Nice looking cats, Some look Siamese, others are all one colour with different tones in them. So this lady is selling these Kittens online, and Tim sends her an email, they email back and forth, and Tim gives her our number. She calls on Sunday and I talk to her for a bit asking her all kinds of questions (to which most of them she was clueless) so she's telling me that they're ready to go, and she has someone coming to look at them that day (BTW I don't respond well to people trying to pressure me into things...) I don't know the exact words of the conversation, or what order i asked these in, but here are the answers to some of the questions I asked her.

Q-Do you have any references from people you have sold cats to in the past?
A- Uh.. No. I should probably start doing that though, eh?

Q- Are the parents related?
A- No.

Q where did the parents come from?
A- Pet paradise. (a pet store here in London)

Q well, how do you know they're not related?
A well, I didn't get them at the same time, I got them about a year apart.

Q-well, they could have come from the same breeder, and possibly from the same parents
A- well maybe.

Q-How long have you been breeding?
A- 2 years. originally, when I got the first cat, that wasn't my intention. but my daughter told me i could probably make some money off the cats, cause they're nice cats, so i got another one and started breeding.

Q-Are you registered with CFA?
A- No.

Q- are you registered with CCA?
A- no.

at which point I told her i would call her back. the next day, i got a hold of the manager at Pet paradise, and she said that there is a few breeders that she gets them from, but she doesn't remember that far back. Also, she told me that they NEVER get purebred Tonkinese, that they are always crossed with Siamese. so because they're a cross, they can't be papered.
I really hate when people are out to mis-lead me.

the plan for today....

so yesterday, I didn't really end up doing anything. I got up with Tim and stayed for a while after he left for work and then I went back to bed. and slept til 14:00!!! 14:00! BAAAAD Trina... so today I have a plan.
now Til 13:00 play on the computer and drink coffee.
13:00-13:30 Clean in the living room and Kitchen
13:30-14:00 tackle the sewing room
14:00-14:30 Break! work on the puzzle or play on the computer
14:30- 15:30- Clean upstairs Bedroom, bathroom, more sewing room
15:30-16:00- Break!
16:00- Tim gets home- plan and make dinner.
yay! after Tim gets home I'm not sure what we're going to do, but we'll figure it out. I think there's a movie he wanted me to watch. lol

I should get started! Toodles!!

procrastination at it's finest

Ok, so I haven't written anything in a couple of days. Wednesday, I forgot I had a meeting in the afternoon. oh, the joys of being a union rep.

I also haven't worked on my sewing room at all this week. hopefully this weekend I'll get some time in there. I've just been trying to keep the rest of the house mostly clean and ignoring it. I hate that i'm such a procrastinator sometimes. I just have other stuff to do first... I also have to figure out some way to take off the closet doors. I made some beautiful pink curtains, and i need to get them up there soon. I think that'll make me want to be in there more.

Yesterday I ended up working until 16:45. Usually, I get off at 13:30. on Monday, when I went to Waterloo, My co-worker relieved me at 12:15. so 1 hour and 15 minutes early. this was in exchange for me covering for him yesterday. he had a dentist's appointment, at 14:00. so basically he owes me 2 hours. so on Monday, I get to leave at 11:30, which is UBER exiting!! I really do have the best co-worker ever.

So, Tim wants to get a Kitten. no, not just any kitten, a $700 kitten. I think he's undecided as to whether he wants a Bengal, or an Abyssinian. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE cats. I have a cat. she's wonderful. and i'm not opposed to getting another cat. I've known that Tim has wanted a kitten for a while. A little orange boy. I think it'd be good for Haze to have a little brother. just... why spend $700 on a cat? there are SO many kitties having kittens. beautiful kittens. I think Haze was one of those Many Many kittens. that, or she was abandoned. she was almost a year when I got her I think, and she was SO skinny... I just had to keep her. anyway, my point is there are so many kittens that are in need of a home, and are beautiful and fabulous. $700 is a lot of money. A lot of money to us, anyway. We need a new refrigerator. $700 could fix and feed a new cat AND my cat for a year. A YEAR!

New! and naps

So yesterday we went to Waterloo. The whole purpose of the trip was to go to this big game store called J&J cards. (the reason they're called J&J cards is because they opened up about 20 years ago, when sports cards were very popular) now they have everything- Games, puzzles, scenery (for miniature games) webkinz (which I don't really understand) but no living dead dolls. :( (lol like I need more anyway...) so I bought a slinky, which I've found is very calming to play with, a shiny new set of pink sparkly dice, and a 1000pc Lucille Ball puzzle, which is so far pretty frustrating, though I've got most of the edges together. I'm going to frame it or mount it or whatever people do with puzzles these days. lol. and I'm going to hang it in my sewing room, when my sewing room is completed.

so today I'm tired, but I'm determined to be productive. I'm going to clean and organize for a half hour in my sewing room, do 10 minutes of step aerobics, do my puzzle for a half hour, and clean for at least a half hour on the main floor of my house. Kitchen/ living room/ shoe area. Tim's having a friend over on Wednesday, and I don't want the house to look like a pig sty. an hour and 40 minutes of productiveness isn't bad, eh? though I think I'm going to do my puzzle and step aerobics before tim gets home and then have a nap. hopefully that'll cure my tiredness. I love naps. I always sleep so good. they're the best. I think if more people took naps, everyone would be a lot nicer.

So anyone who reads this post has to take a nap at some point today. At least for a half hour. feel free to read this post as many times as you want :)

happy napping, and blessed be.

My messy messy sewing room.

Yesterday, I ended up cleaning up my sewing room a bit. lol I know I said I was feeling 'creative', but I went in there, and went on a bit of a tossing binge. I want to re- arrange it, so I think I should de-clutter and organize a bit first. It's bad. Really. I'm a bit of a pack rat... lol

Today I feel very together. Last night I did everything I needed to do for work today, and I slept in until 5:10! (usually I get up at 5) even though I woke up a lot last night. We're going to Waterloo this afternoon, by 'we' I mean, Tim, his folks and I. we're going to leave here at about 1, and then we're going to end up eating dinner there and then come home. Tim wants to go to this J&J cards. They sell games and books and toys. I don't have a whole lot to spend, so hopefully there's nothing I like. lol I also want to make a side trip to a thrift store. I would LOVE to go ot Value village, becasue it's 1/2 price day on all used items. but, the closest VV is in Kitchener :(

Hopefully I'll do good today :)

thanks for reading,
BB

sunday morning

man, I love living dead dolls... they're the best. an expensive obsession though... at $32.95 plus tax a piece... minus my discount... lol it pays to live with someone who works at a comic book store. some of them I got at a very reduced price though. like some of them I bought at half price, or off friends, some of them were bought for me.. I have 40 in all... forty? like four- zero....Yikes... I need to get some new shelves. lol.

Today I feel.. Full. I made pancakes for breakfast today. not tasty Aunt Jemima pancakes though... Bulk store pancakes. see... the bulk store is near the meat store, so i figured- why not... well.. yeah. ick. I mixed up the batter, and it smelled like rotted milk... or at least milk that's been left out a while... it didn't taste too bad, but I'll be happy when i get another box of auntie's lol

I love cooking. almost every Sunday morning I cook breakfast. it's really the only time I can. monday-friday, I wake up at 5 to leave for work just before 6, Tim works Tuesday-Saturday, waking up between 7 and 9, depending on the day. but on Sunday, I'm home, and he doesn't leave for work till 11. so that gives me lots of time. I try to cook dinner most nights, but I like to cook breakfast, something about dealing with hot utensils while still groggy... lol

I'm also feeling very creative today (now that my pancakes have settled) I'm not sure what i'll do though. I have SO many projects that need finishing, and lots that also need starting... lol
I'll divulge what i ended up doing today, tomorrow. Talk to ya then!

Blessed be.
T.

crazy, crazy.

Today, I feel very... rushed. I feel like I have nothing done. Still need to do laundry, eat lunch.. (it's now 1pm) get ready for a home made chinese feast... I'm actually not cooking anything, I'm going to Tim's friend James' house. hopefully it'll go better than last year. the food was good, but I was a little concerned about the amount of pathogens that would be consumed. I didn't throw up, that's a good sign, right?
Today I finished a necklace for a friend of mine. Last week she seemed kind of off, so what cheers a girl up more than jewelery? lol hopefully it makes her feel a bit better.
I'm making a lot of changes in my life lately, and I wanted to list some of them to keep me on track.
~Changing myself on the inside, becoming a nicer, calmer person. especially with my Fiance, I'm a little high strung, and that's one thing I don't like about myself. I'm going to try to stay assertive, but not bitchy. He's the most important person in my life, and I believe he deserves to be treated better.
~ I'm trying to get healthier, this will help change the person on the inside, and on the outside. this change is only for myself. I have to love myself more on the inside and the outside, so that i can love others more.
~ I'm going to try to find my biological father. I do have a step dad, the last time i saw him was march 2008, and it was because my grandmother (his mom) was in the Hospital. he didn't try to contact me before or after that. I'm in the phone book. I'm trying to find my dad for various reasons. so i can see if i look like him, I'm the only light haired, light skinned person in my family, all the rest are italian/french/ native Canadian. Also to see if i have any other brothers or sisters. another reason is to see if there are any genetic diseases that i should watch out for. and Dammit, i need to know my heritage. my roots.

that's a couple things i'm trying to change in my life. I'm sure there's more, but i can't think of anymore right now. lol too much stuff to do today.
oh! I got some new dolls yesterday. 3. I'm addicted to them.

to all reading this, blessed be.

a long, long time

man, I haven't posted on here in forever. a lot of things have been going on in my life- things that I'd rather not talk about at the moment. on a 'Nice' note, today, I am officially common-law. Today I have been living in a conjucal relationship with my lovely significant other for 3 years. we've been together for 9 years, but today it's official. Yay!

Moving on :P

I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately, too. who am I? I haven't exactly found the answer to that yet, but I've figured out that I am me. A 24 year old female. An individual. A Canadian. A lover. A leader.
I've found lately that I like making people feel good asbout themselves. it makes me feel good. I work with people during the day. not the public, but in an office building. with about 200 other people. I'm the receptionist. I greet everyone as they come in, and i try to compliment as many of them as possible. genuine compliments though. something that I actually like.
Maybe I wish people would do it more to me.

I'm reading a book by Christopher Penczak called 'The inner temple of witchcraft" I'm reading it because I want to develop myself internally as a witch. i have always been interested in the craft and so, I am reading this book. there's certain 'lessons' or things you should achieve within this book. one of them is writing 3 pages in a journal every day. a blog is a journal, right? just kind of a public one :) so throughout the day (on most days) I'm going to try to write as much as I can.

the weekend...

alright, it's Saturday... not going to cheat today. no chocolate, no cheezies... OK, a couple of cheezies. I had 7... but i marked them down on MFP... I'm on my 5th coffee... I might go to the store to get some chain to make some necklaces to put on Kijiji and Etsy. I do have some chain that i've rescued though. we'll see. that's about it for today. feeling a bit down on myself. I've heard writing out all the things you like helps.

Coffee
Cuddling
being intimate
planning the wedding
grass on my feet
when the cat lays between Tim and I
going to bed together
seeing my weight actually go down

crisis averted :P

yay! Monday!

back to following my diet... I caved a little on the weekend... those onion-ring puff things, I have no idea what they're called, but those and chocolate covered sesame seeds... and candy from fanshawe pioneer village, and... okay, I'll stop... so anyways, I feel like a cow. it's NOT okay to cheat just on the weekend. or ever. I need to reward myself once in a while, but not that much. 1500 calories a day, + however much I exercise. so more exercise= more food. the only exercise I got this weekend, was walking around fanshawe pioneer village with Tim's parents. maybe I'll do some strength stuff today. Maybe.

With my breakfast, and lunch, I'm at a little under 1000 calories. hopefully I can keep dinner pretty low.

Am I crazy?

it has to get easier...

so I decided that before my wedding, I want to lose 40 pounds... sounds like a lot, but it really isn't, seeing that I have 28 months. I registered on this website www.myfitnesspal.com to track what I'm eating and how much I'm exercising*. So far I feel a lot better. Eating about 1500 calories a day and taking vitamins and drinking a shitload of water (or should that be boatload?) anyway, a lot of water.
According to Tim's mom's digital scale, I'm 210 lbs... according to the analog one (which I trust more) that I got last night, I'm 204.. 6 lbs is a lot on the ego... that's 6 weeks of dieting... I think I can lose 40, it's not really that bad, is it? I just have to cut out a lot of the fast foods I eat and replace them with fruits and veggies. (okay, we'll see if I'm doing alright in a few weeks)

Last night my friend Will came over, he's working with Primerica now, and he was with his boss and they were explaining financial stuff. money money money. is this all people care about these days? yes, I realize I have to work to make money to live and pay bills, but money doesn't make me that happy... if Tim and I lived in the forest and lived off the land... growing our own vegetables, killing our own meat, I'd be 100% happier... his boss tried to push me in to working with them... I couldn't do that... I have too little free time as it is. I like my job, I don't mind that I don't make a lot of money, my job honestly isn't that stressful... "mo money, mo problems" I don't need a part time job to add to my full 2 full time jobs (security, and being a housewife) could you imagine how stressed I would be? SO stressed... I have a pretty short fuse as it is.

So Will and Sophia (his daughter) (and I'm assuming his boss) coming back on monday to talk to me about savings and paying down my debt and Tim's debt. maybe thay can help, maybe they can't.

(* I don't actually exercise a lot. I have been making an effort, but that's 5 minutes of jumping rope every 3 days... lol)

it's a cat thing...

I have a cat. she's grey. and absolutely hilarious. she loves a challenge. we've recently figured out this box with a hole in it/ping pong ball thing and it gets us laughing hysterically... lol this isn't her playing with the ball, but her anyways. she's a bit fatter now, but you get the idea :)

Hi! I know, I'm a loser. I haven't written anything in a while. not like I have any followers... lol the last few weeks have been good, keeping the house clean, hanging with the fam, (ok, Tim's fam... my almost fam...) and it's been good. togetherness, a sense of belonging. all that. My friend K is starting to make some soapy things... bath bombs, salts.. she's got a store on Etsy! http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=7435910 I think I might get up there too, with some jewellery and whatnot. Making some Chain mail jewellery and beaded stuff. we'll see how ambitious I get. lol. we were maybe thinking of having a booth together in one of the lovely summer festivals, not this summer, but next. that'd be exiting. but yeah. work's getting a little monotonus lately, so I gotta spice it up with other ways to make money. lol

and den....

so lately I've been really stressed out about debt. My Fiancee's uncle does my taxes every year. this is the first year that Tim and I have Filed together. (we bought a house last August... Exiting!) anyway, I found out that I'm getting about $1300 back! Woo! so that'll pay off a huge chunk. i love getting money, even if it is returned back to me :)
oh, I also won the lottery today! $5! Woo! better than nothing :)

ahoy...

Life is going so damn fast... a lot of the time I wish I could just slow down time. And not just while I'm at work. I do, for the most part, like my job though. I do security in an office. so, I'm basically a receptionist. Good hours, not so good pay. But I'd rather be poor and happy.
I'm getting married in a little over 2 years, getting pretty exited. lol no real plans for it yet, we have a general idea of what we want though. outdoors, BBQ style food, cupcake cake, lol costumes... I have no idea what my dress will look like though... we'll see... haha
Life.
too damn short.
effing enjoy it.

it begins...

so I've started a blog. Big deal. What do people blog about? I'm not exactly sure. Life? Love? other miscellaneous things... who knows. so I think I'd better get started-
So, I'm... here... lived here all my life... born and raised. I have 4 brothers, and 1 sister. 3 of which I talk to and they all live far, far away. the brother that lives closest to me is the one I don't really talk to. I've tried, but nothing... I'm 23, I own a house, with my fiancee. I love to cook, though I'm not that good at it most of the time. that's it for now. I'm at work, so I should probably do some of that stuff... lol