crazy, crazy.

Today, I feel very... rushed. I feel like I have nothing done. Still need to do laundry, eat lunch.. (it's now 1pm) get ready for a home made chinese feast... I'm actually not cooking anything, I'm going to Tim's friend James' house. hopefully it'll go better than last year. the food was good, but I was a little concerned about the amount of pathogens that would be consumed. I didn't throw up, that's a good sign, right?
Today I finished a necklace for a friend of mine. Last week she seemed kind of off, so what cheers a girl up more than jewelery? lol hopefully it makes her feel a bit better.
I'm making a lot of changes in my life lately, and I wanted to list some of them to keep me on track.
~Changing myself on the inside, becoming a nicer, calmer person. especially with my Fiance, I'm a little high strung, and that's one thing I don't like about myself. I'm going to try to stay assertive, but not bitchy. He's the most important person in my life, and I believe he deserves to be treated better.
~ I'm trying to get healthier, this will help change the person on the inside, and on the outside. this change is only for myself. I have to love myself more on the inside and the outside, so that i can love others more.
~ I'm going to try to find my biological father. I do have a step dad, the last time i saw him was march 2008, and it was because my grandmother (his mom) was in the Hospital. he didn't try to contact me before or after that. I'm in the phone book. I'm trying to find my dad for various reasons. so i can see if i look like him, I'm the only light haired, light skinned person in my family, all the rest are italian/french/ native Canadian. Also to see if i have any other brothers or sisters. another reason is to see if there are any genetic diseases that i should watch out for. and Dammit, i need to know my heritage. my roots.

that's a couple things i'm trying to change in my life. I'm sure there's more, but i can't think of anymore right now. lol too much stuff to do today.
oh! I got some new dolls yesterday. 3. I'm addicted to them.

to all reading this, blessed be.